Heart Pains : Letters to him

Dear Mr ...

I can't place this feeling

Am I resigned, sad, afraid 

Why am I calm, wondering

Maybe tomorrow I will feel

Or maybe I will sink into oblivion

Not missing you or wondering

Wouldn't mind at all

My reality is dark that's what it is

There could be light at the end of the tunnel

No one knows

Walk with me please that's all I ask

I have come to a realisation

That this feeling, love, hard to suppress

Why you though, jury is still out

Stubborn fact: for as long as I feel it I know I will be here

I am here...

Hello Mr ...

I'm exhausted

Been running up Everest and down

The high and low 

Losing my breathe

My heart's weathering

I'm feeling dizzy

Been on the merry go round

More than a thousand circles

Losing my mind

My head is spinning

Lost in the silence between us

This cave ,dark and eerie

Your laughter an echo,scary

I'm not afraid, just numb

My heart and head useless now

Addled, sapped can't do anything now

I'm just waiting on you now

Release me

Lost girl

She has a broken campus useless in the woods

Looking for hidden pirates treasure,precious

Deep into the woods she goes

Drawn by a strong force,supernatural

She has no map

Her bearing all messed up

Promised treasure nowhere to be found

A wild goose chase it was

That sweet devil's whisper, enchanting

Which way is home , the trees all look the same

There is a storm brewing 

Lost in the woods, alone freezing

Needing a miracle, light

Lost girl

Wait for day

Dawn is near.

Dear Mr ...

My deepest regrets

Your flowers have wilted

A painful death, irreversible

I wept, my tears dried

You stayed away, just a little too long

Your place in my heart, void

My feelings for you, ashes

Buried deep, to be unseen

I bled, I'm healing

You stayed away, just a little too long

Its a little too late now

The waters run dry

You are lost, ghost

Only memories live on 

I am not afraid to remember

You shouldn't either

Vivid memories of moments, all so surreal

Those will fade

A beautiful dream shared

Wake up now...